Ever So Alive

Past your stare I see so much more. Through my soul I wish it would stay. I have gone too long without it, and everyone knows,so much as a touch could kill you or so they say. Such a powerful thing knows not of choice but only of destiny.To live or destroy it commands. Is it I whom it must contain itself within or has it not room to spare another chance? Mother earth knows far more than we can ever speak and she holds the last decision in the end. To hope and want, as much as i do, would be like a dream too easy to understand.
So, look at me once more. let me see past the stare of your eyes. Give me the thing ive hoped for all along.
And let your love make me feel ever so alive.

Disappear

In a dream, I once found myself here.
Not saying a word, for silence had hushed me. I sat alone. Thinking about everything and how it had affected me over the years. My eyes followed my thoughts, like patterns in the snow. One to another and no one to answer them but me. The branches webbed across eachother like my emotions, each one different but yet they all ended in the same place. Equally as painful. Laced in shadows, they reminded me of myself. Quietly standing, patiently waiting to overcome their selves someday but still getting nowhere. All in this time,  i said nothing. Just observed the things around me as if they were mine. wishing I could become them so that one day all my fears and worries would like me,......Disappear.

Being A Ninja

I have to say that ever since seeing the "Ninja Assassin” movie, I fell in love with ninjas. I have always been a vampire kind of chick with the fast fights and the furious blood draining but when I entered the world of ninjas, I suddenly had the urge to buy and wear a 10 dollar Wal-Mart ninja costume(complete with mask and ninja stars)and slither my way through the Ramen isle dodging oncoming customers. crazy.....maybe. fun.....u better know it! I have even gone to the length of going to the library and getting books on ninjas and ninjutsu. wow, right? surprisingly enough, I've even picked up the knack for Tai-Chi and working out. once again, wow. my dream now is to become a ninja (or at least in my eyes…as close as I can get.) I have the ambition just one problem: where the hell am I gonna find a ninjutsu master in the middle of Arizona?.....yah....I couldn’t answer that either. Oh well, I guess I can learn many martial arts and become my own ninja. I think it might look funny being a 16 year old Caucasian chick with glasses. Although I have been told by many people I look Asian. I am tiny and slender enough plus the slanty eyes. Geez!..... of course it got to be the outcome I expected. lol. I'm not sure if my sudden interest is legit or if its just a boredom passer time but either way, I’m excited for what will become of it.