If Time Stood Still

If time stood still, I would hold my lover.
Tell him ill always be there.
If time stood still, I would hug my mother
and show how much I care.
If time stood still, I'd heal my father.
take all of his troubles away forever.
If time stood still, I'd love myself.
Be better than i have been before.
If time stood still, Id forget those filthy liars.
never trustworthy, backstabbers , of course.
If time stood still, id un-do all my mistakes.
give a little more instead of just take.
If time stood still, oh the things that i would chance.
for the better of myself
for the better of this place.

Drowning lessons( the Swamp)

Here I am. Stagnant. Strengthless.

Limply holding on to the only thing my hands would allow of me.

I lay there, half way on the bank, almost lifeless.

I am sinking. the water is rising like my fears.

sucking me in, refusing to lighten its grip.

Should i just let go? This monster will take me anyway.

Tears flood out of my eyes in anger.

The denial almost kills me quicker.

My body is sore. my hands are shaking and im not getting anywhere but underneath.

I am sick of lying to myself. no more denial,

so I let go.

sinking deeper, ive given up.

I will no longer resist.

I willl soon be nothing.

so i wait, letting it devour me like a sick disease.

Its filthy hands slowly pull me under.

No more of this denial.

No more me.