Guilty

I am guilty. Not of crime but of hope.
Hope that someday someone somewhere will reach out to me without being told to.
I want to share my everything, but its kind of hard with people who only care about themselves.
Im not saying i do everything right but i would at least like to have acknowledgement.
i get so tired of waiting for people to do this or do that, or begginhg them for months on end.
By that time, i already have it in my mind that the person doesnt care and i should just give up trying.
i dont mean to sound sad and im sorry if i do. I just get so weak waiting for someone to finally have a legit concern about the things im interested in or the things i do and say. I do the same for them. almost border line excited when they tell me something theyve done.... why cant they do it for me? Am i boring? does no one really care to begin with?
I dont know why and i dont really care how but will someone somewhere someday...acknowledge me?

DnB(Drum and Bass)

Have you ever heard something euphoric and mind shattering at the same time? Something that caught you in the moment and refused to let go? I have and its the wondeful sound of Drum and Bass! I dont completely know what it is yet that triggers the "OMG!!!" hormone in my brain but I do know its the best thing my ears have ever heard on this planet earth. For those of you who dont know what im talking about here is a brief discription. "Drum and bass (commonly abbreviated to D&B or DnB) is a type of electronic dance music which emerged in the mid 1990s. The genre is characterized by fast breakbeats (typically between 160–190 bpm, occasional variation is noted in older compositions), with heavy bass, sub-bass lines, and occasional infra-bass lines. Drum and bass began as an offshoot of the United Kingdom rave scene of the very early 1990s. Over the first decade of its existence, the incorporation of elements from various musical genres led to many permutations in its overall style." -- (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Drum_and_bass)


Maybe its the melodic recce bass that take me beyond, possibly the heavy mindblowing sub-bass, or the epic as heck FX, but i mostly think its the ORGASMIC BASS EXPLODING OUTTA MY SPEAKERS AND RATTLING MY BRAIN TO NO END....yep thats gotta be it!.. haha. but I just cant get enough of it, im a DnB addict! I tell you, if music were a living, breathing organism, Drum and Bass would be the heartbeat that keeps everything alive!! i cant even begin to explain how much i love it.Its my soul. I just cant reason why it wouldnt be a mainstream music though, I mean, who wouldnt want to listen to it? Its the equivalent to being rich, getting laid by the worlds hottest person everynight and on top of that OWNING THE WORLD and everything around it!!!!!!!! i mean, c'mon! who wouldn't want to experiance that?! i mean you've got your Dubstep,Dancefloor,Darkstep,Drill and Bass, Drum & Bass step, Drumfunk, Drumstep, Hardstep, Intelligent,Breakcore,Jazzstep, Jump-Up, Liquid funk (or simply "Liquid"), Sambass, Techstep, Techno-DNB, Neurofunk ,Hardstyle, Raggacore, and so so so much more.
I mean, if thats not enough to make you bleed out your pants......lol, not literally..haha. anyways I love Drum And Bass and i probabaly will be that crazy old lady listening to dnb all day in the nursing home that all the other ladies are scared of but hey, I dont care! If I have dnb...im all set.

Peace out! Love&Respect,
MissDnB

To my readers

Hello followers,
i just want to thank you for reading my blogs and stayin tru. i just want to let you know that just because some of my blogs are sad,doesnt mean im a sad person. i keep my blogs as if they were journal enteries. i am a very momentual person, which means, i invest everything into what im feeling at the moment. I am infact a very happy person with great friends and family. i just come here and write to get my deep feeling out/ things that have been held inside. kinda like a best friend would discuss situations with his/her other friend for advice or just to vent. anyways ive got some good blogs commin so keep readin em'. once again, i love each and every one of you who reads my blog( yes, even if you dont follow me). thnx for your time.

peace out! love&respect,
MissDnB

Come Forth To Me

Dark angel, come forth to me, do not linger in shadows like such. Raise yourself above me and shed your tears there. Rain upon my face if they must. If you cannot spread your wings even then, I will carry you until flight you trust. take you away from such tragedy and show you the path of love.

Find Me

Find me, because I can not find myself. You seem to have known me better all these years.

please, discover you need me. Dont let me become just a memory. you always said I was better than this.

and when you do find me, hold on to me for dear life. Promise me you will never let go.

I want to know im needed. charish me as if this is the last time you will ever see me again.

Find me,because I am nothing without you.

Sinking a Ship (That Was Barely Sailing)

My life is an ocean. Never steady.The waves, my relationships, each stronger than the last.

And then theres me, the ship.

I have aboard my love.

I once knew where I was headed, but lost the sun.

I have yet to set my sails again.

But the truth of possibly never seeing dock again hit hard.

Such a deep reflection to sink in.

Intention like a compass but the blue prints were knowingly not built strong enough.

And one day when that tsunami hits me, I wish to reel in my anchor and let it take me.

No fear, No regret.

But, every sailor knows the waves are notorious for being misleading.

 Sea creatures linger beneath.Waiting to latch on and pull me under.

Structure still decrepit but the hopes stay steadfast.

The only thing that keeps me afloat at times.

watching for that sun to show itself again.

I think i find it, but then see it is nothing but a fog light. I wished it wouldve lead me to that tsunami, but it was a whirlpool instead. It is strong and angry, throwing me around disasterously. I then discover my last remains. A sinking ship that was barely sailing.

Spirit (Seeker)

As I've aged, many have asked me when I think it will be that we will rise once again and  return "home" also to hear that sweet music of  perfection that will be shed upon our ears. I pitty for I can never answer them undoubtfully and I am not knowledged of any "home". To ask of me that would be equivalent to asking when the moon will fall or when the Earth will stand still. Not a single answer comes to mind without the words " I do not know" occupying them. I too want to know these answers but question thier logicality.
Is it right of me? Do I know but subconsiously keep them hidden until time reveals them?
still and yet sadly, I ponder. Puzzled at such a thought. The only thing I have come along in my years have been the lessons that life has taught me, my history and my present, strugglement and success but still no answer of my future beyond my reach. Does it lay upon the stars? Is it a destiny that I havent yet crossed? Does it twirl between the fingers of Greenman and Luna?  Does it even exsist? I question and still no answer. I know what my heart believes and I know what my mind understands but still none of which my soul answers. Is this too much or too little of me to ever figure? I'm sure I wont know for a very long time, if ever, or atleast until proven otherwise.

Intertwined

Today, we intertwined.

Our souls were one.

His arms around me in a secure embrace, we slept.

His cheek lay upon my chest, my heartbeats his lullaby.

Soft and still his skin, filling in my every curve. Breaths unite us.

so confident he surrounded me.

wrapped around me like a protecter.

His sweet dreamers' smile shown through. At that very moment, We were no longer individual. The peace and love in which we slept, amalgamated us. We felt such tranquility and wholeness as we were.

Never thought I to be in such a astonishing happening.

I felt as if the word "I" were no longer nessassary and that it should be replaced with "we" eternally and so on.

My heart is his, my blood and veins we share, my eyes we look through and my love is ours.

And still, even as his presence (that at this moment I am without),we are and forever will be..one.