Rain That I wished would stay

It began to rain outside which was something i hadn't seen nor felt for a long time. I was with my love at the time so i said," come with me and feel the rain"

I stripped down to my undershirt and a pair of shorts and ran outside to hard falling rain pushed by big gusts of wind. I stood there putting my arms in the air, face tilted up towards the sky letting it hit my face. I then felt his hands behind me as they glided down my arms and wrapped around my waist. He turned me around and kissed me romantically. Raindrops fell on our faces but never parted our kiss. It was perfect the way it was. so sweet and tender of a kiss repeatedly giving each others lips a place to rest. I layed my head on his shoulder watching the water roll off his face and bead its way down his neck meeting the collar of his shirt.He held me close and tight, just the way i love and we continued to feel the rain we wished would stay.

So Close To Perfection( I Can Almost Be It)

Today, I rested upon him. The room lit so perfectly as the shadows kissed his face.
Hands layed gently across his chest.
This feeling I had I will never forget. His warm, smooth skin against my palms-
repeatedly moving softly as he breathed. My fingertips nestled themselves in between his breast so calm.
The most beautiful of all was his heartbeat, making itself known beneath my touch. So rhythmic and alive. At this moment, I wanted nothing more than to breathe him into me as if he were air.
To become him permanently.I wanted to be as close as I could ever be. Feeling so, I moved my hand over his left breast and felt the only thing keeping him alive. It felt as though i was holding his heart in my hands.I then closed my eyes, took a deep breath pushing closer to him, and let myself believe i was him. kissing and breathing in sync with him as if his lungs were my own. His warmth became mine. I realized at that moment what it truly felt to be so close to perfection I could almost be it.

Change

There is a change in the air, i can feel it. Everything is coming together at once. people are reconnecting and such weird things have been happening lately. The stars must be in line or maybe its this lunar eclipse, I'm not sure but there is definitely a chance of change. I also have been acting really out of character as far as emotions have gone. i don't understand what has possessed me to do so but its really strange. for example, I have somehow psychically connected with my step grandmother whom, for a few really f***ed up reasons, I lost connection with a year ago. I was in the middle of something important when all the sudden it hit me and all i could think about was her and so i called her and reconnected. During this phone call,she said she had been thinking of me almost periodically and it was really getting to her so much that she was thinking about calling me. Just little things like that that make me see things evolving. i do however, have a feeling that they are for the best, whether you call it positive energy or maybe karma or whatever floats your boat but something is changing quickly.i don't know. I'm curious to any comments you guys might have..hit me up :)

Perfect ( to my special someone)

To be with you is perfect.
I once thought id never love again, but somehow you have proven me wrong.
I can feel your honesty just through the way you hold on to me.
its priceless and i cant resist but to hold on too.
For so long, i ve been talking about "coming home" and i never thought id find it, but once again you proved me wrong.
I found it with you.
the funny thing is i knew of you all along and you were standing right infront of me this whole time,
but i was too damaged to see you clearly, so i never noticed until now.
I can finally say that ive got a reason to keep holding on to that river bank,to keep sailing until i find dock, to see that light shine through,to find that scarecrow,and to hold on to whats truely mine atlast (reference to past writings of mine).
It feels so wierd to finally feel this. all these years ive done nothing but give and i am finally being given to. it almost is difficult for me to take your love because its been quite awhile since ive seen honest love from someone other than the expected ( not to sound like im taking anyone for granted or anything. no harm ment.)
i can not explain this. it is almost like i can see my future layed out in front of me without really trying.
i love this, but at the same time i understand that things dont always last forever and they can change at any given moment. but for some reason i can see everything will go just as planned. i have a feeling that everything will be...perfect.

New Love

You, my love, are like a dream.


A dream so pleasant, that not one soul would wish to wake from it.

Your eyes, bright as the morning’s sunrise, reflecting along the slow river currents.

They shine life into me, bringing me to my center.

They alone express words unspoken.

Your lips, so soft, like sweet breezes rustling through daisy fields.

So sure of themselves, knowing exactly when to linger.

Caressing beauty, they hold on to every opportunity that awaits.

Your touch, so alive like the blue jay singing in the trees.

So soothing and perfect with every passing moment.

It flows so passionately and intrigues me so.

Your voice, so luring, like the night sky

Surrounding me, something I can look up to as a home to my dreams.

With each word, I can imagine a perfect promise like the stars lighting my path.

And I know if I were to close my eyes at this very second, you’d be with me.

To show me the way, to bring me to life and give me the gift of this dream.

Your love.

A new Love.