something happy

there.haha lol.

better days

i know ive had better days.

wish the sun wouldnt leave this place.   

it rained outside my windowpane.

flowerpots with no flowers to claim.

clouds are out all black and grey

the doors are shut in their frames
it seems to me all the same
thoughts are fluid but no words to explain.
the bed is cold since you're away

the walls remind me of that day

i know i shouldve made you stay
i just wanted to hear you say
you love me most and nothings changed.
 i know ive had better days.

You

I loved you

you shot me down.

i needed you

you were no where to be found

i am so alone

fighting to be noticed

an empty house is not a home

its your name i call

but your zombified

can you hear me at all?

my heart aches

but you do not feel

into pieces it breaks

tears run cold
but you do not see
i reach out and do not recieve
i breathed you

you denied me the air

soffocating to make you care
i bleed you
the numbness i am
cut so deep, lost again

i felt you

but no responce to my touch

it is one sided. i felt myself.

I see you

the reflection of loss

cannot admit to the pain it caused.

I missed you

but my efforts are useless.

sink down into myself i guess.

i called you

but my voice went away

choked by the silence, i could not say.

i lived you

but you did not nurture

died at the thought, no more torture.